Kadee’s Transformation Story Entry #1: The Reasons Why

Greetings and thank you for taking the time to read My Transformation Journey.  I am Kadee, Executive Assistant and Tuition Counselor here at NaturaLook Institute for Permanent Cosmetics.  I have recently made the life changing decision to undergo Gastric Bypass Surgery.  In an effort to reach out to our patients and community we are all sharing a little bit about ourselves, recipes, updates etc. and this is my contribution.  Happy Reading!!

I think the natural place to start would be an explanation of why I am putting myself out into cyber space, sharing my story and journey with the masses and opening myself up to whatever may come.  I have to admit this is definitely not my style. I preferred to keep my addiction private.  It was not for the world or even my family or closest friends to know about, help, or understand.   Food was my companion, my best friend, my nemesis and side-kick.  Always there in my mind guiding me, talking to me almost like it had a voice of its own, its own will, through my day always reminding me of the next opportunity to put something in my mouth.  And every time making me feel worse and worse about how I had lost complete control and had no will to change.  This is what got me to an incredible weight, which we will talk about later, a deteriorating lifestyle and a slow downward movement toward death.  Hard words to admit to and even harder to put onto e-paper.

Change does not happen in a place of comfort.  We have all watched The Biggest Loser and know that the contestants have the biggest weight losses when they push past the point of comfort to where they never thought they could go.  And it hurts.  It hurts a lot.  You know you always feel better after a good cry and have worked through an issue.  It is scary but after the storm there is always a rainbow.  And more importantly, a sense of peace.  I guess if change were easy everyone would do it.  So my decision was to change, see my rainbow and feel some peace.  This, to my dismay, means placing myself in a position of severe discomfort and holding myself accountable.  I am hoping that this blog will keep me motivated to work out, adhere to the rules, because I am really good at justifying why I don’t have to follow them, and be an inspiration to just one person to make the change to live. 

Kadee

Look for Entry – 2: My weight, My body, My Choice coming next week.